Pause…

Hmmm, what do you do when your mind is running a thousand miles an hour and your body is saying, “yeah…that ain’t happening.” Write…so many things going through my mind right now. I love living with a friend and sharing expenses, but sometimes I miss the alone time that I had before. Quiet is a beautiful thing…it really is. Ah, there are ways to make it work. Always a way.

Sitting here with my earphones on listening to Pandora while I think and let the words come. My mind is floating lightly on the sound like a boat on a lake on a warm spring day. The gentle breeze of thought touch here and there and make me smile. None linger long enough to take hold, just a brief moment and off again. And then…there’s the commercials (because I’m cheap and don’t want to PAY for radio). OK, so frugal is the nice way of saying it but it still remains the dollar in my pocket can better be spent on stuff that I can’t get for free. Yup, that’s my story and I’m sticking to it.

Sometimes I just get lost in a place where it is just me. I can be in a crowded room or maybe at the mall or bookstore (I love bookstores) and find myself somewhere far beyond where I am physically. I often wonder if anyone else has these moments. I sort of feel like I am cocooned warm, loved and secure. It’s so easy to want to stay there. I know that the life I am living now is truly just training ground for my true life that starts when I shed this one…I kind of think these moments are small glimpses into that life. I hope they are anyway. The quiet times…the sweet memories that wash over me and remind me whose I am.

 

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